UnlimitedRumination [he/him]

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  • Watts in a resistive example like yours is Volts x Amps. I would have been able to much better answer this question a year ago so forgive me if I’m misremembering the specs but I’ll answer since nobody else has. Two things that suggest to me this might be a bad idea:

    • Charger is 40W, that’s probably usb PD (I don’t know anything about QC so maybe I’m wrong). PD supplies more than 15W (5V x 3A) by stepping up the voltage, not the amperage. While stepping up either would likely be bad or very bad for some part of your circuit, don’t worry about that though; without the powered device telling it to, PD won’t activate. It should max out at 15W… I think. It depends on the resistance on the CC lines and using a splitter could screw up the resistance that tells the power supply which USB version to support so it can go up to 3A (15W). Sorry, it’s been a while since I’ve worked with USB power. 2 strips of 11W will need more power than that. Basically my concern is you won’t get adequate power out of the charger for one reason or another.
    • Where are you getting the 11.52W/min number? Watts don’t have a time unit and that much precision sketches me out. Almost as if someone who isn’t adequately educated measured the power straight off a multimeter once and just wrote that on a product page. Is the LED strip from a reputable manufacturer?




  • I think people like you are a hair from being as insane as the people they lock up.

    Since I fully agree with what the commenter you’re replying to said, I’ll assume you’re lumping me into that group too.

    Sure, call me insane. Call me crazy. Call me fucking nuts and say I need a straight jacket. Whatever floats your boat.

    You’re not one of the people that can lock me up though and it’s pretty clear why. So just remember that “crazy” motherfuckers like me are driving next to you on the freeway, shopping behind you in the grocery store, living down the hall, etc. We could lose it at any point!

    Fear of what you don’t understand and ignoring expert opinions are destroying society. Which side of that would you like to be on?

    Plus, you’re talking to another human being, it’s just fucking disrespectful.


  • I personally see it as “hyperfocus” when I’m talking about minutes or hours and “fixations” when on the scale of weeks or months. But I have a lot of opinions about semantics for someone who isn’t a professional 😂

    And I agree with his point in the video, probably because I first saw it years ago so I’m already biased and it’s also very much the case for me. It’s perseveration. I can’t break away from the task, sometimes even if I’m screaming at myself internally to do so. I hate it and it feels like I’m malfunctioning at the time. Hyperfocus sounds like a good thing, maybe even superhuman, that you can willingly steer, and that’s not the case.





  • I agree, and it drives me crazy when people say that about OCD. But I think there’s a gap between the extremes, and if I have the potential to be wrong, I’d rather be wrong by being validating.

    (not arguing, just pondering) Actually now that I think about it, I don’t think it’s the opposite end of the spectrum at all, I think it’s actually the same thing. If you think about it both are coming from not understanding that the disorder is (in my awkward words) the exaggeration of normal human behavior, specifically the exaggeration. Being able to relate to it isn’t enough perspective alone.



  • That’s… sad for him that his perspective is so small. Many people seem incapable of understanding things like this no matter what you say. Hopefully he doesn’t damage someone with his perspective.

    I am not that experienced with EDs but I personally think the most important thing with most maintenance is not that you don’t regress, but that you get back on that damn horse when you fall off. You doing that shows self-awareness and willingness to fail and keep trying to work on yourself, which is true strength. So many people easily fall into a spiral of self-hatred and give up, but no, you’re doing the work, and it’s hard. I have good reason to believe in you too.




  • It might be a little overwhelming to present this as new information to someone, especially if they’re suicidally depressed. I think triaging based on the passive/active scale is a decent way to assess danger while remaining simple. I don’t have a strong sense of privacy for myself but I would imagine many people aren’t super comfortable talking deeply about it to many people they just met. I would imagine as a HCP you could think of it like a pelvic exam. The fewer people who do their own on the patient, the better, because it’s not fun for the recipient. I say that as a former paramedic and a… well-traveled… mental health patient.


  • Yes. I’m not a mental healthcare provider and oddly there seems to be a little bit of variance depending on who you’re talking to, but I think the best way to separate the two is this (SI = suicidal ideation):

    • Passive SI: wanting something to end your life; examples:
      • “I wish I was dead”
      • “I want to go to sleep forever”
      • “I wish I could just disappear”
      • “It would be nice if I got into a car accident or something and it killed me”
    • Active SI: thoughts of dying from your own actions, including:
      • planning the act
      • making accommodations for others when you’re gone
      • “daring” or testing yourself to see if you’ll actually do it
      • speculating on a time and place
      • giving away personal belongings
      • fearing that you might do it

    If you’re having SI of any type the best thing you can do is see a therapist, but obviously if it is dire or an emergency then a hospital is the answer. There are other treatment options at levels in between seeing a therapist weekly and going to a hospital that many people don’t know about (and a a surprising number of doctors don’t tell you about) that insurance should cover.

    I have a lot of personal experience with this stuff and I’m happy to answer anything anyone is curious about.



  • I find frequently even people who have the same disability or an adjacent one can say some really ignorant stuff, almost as if their struggles gives them a license to judge others. Relating to others’ struggles is good and validating, but don’t let it turn into a comparison.

    Even for myself, I didn’t understand the whole picture of what ptsd can do to you when I was dealing with just anxiety. Now that I’ve experienced it, I understand the fucking sheer terror that is living in hypervigilance mode, it really seems unfathomable if you haven’t been there. And I have no idea if I experience it like others do. Not saying one is worse than the other but they are not just variations of the same thing.

    I’m looking forward to the world being a better place when people in general understand it’s best not to try and decide for someone else what their experiences mean to them, and nobody wins when you compare suffering. I hope we make a lot of progress in my lifetime.