Lumelore (She/her)

  • 1 Post
  • 78 Comments
Joined 1 year ago
cake
Cake day: June 9th, 2023

help-circle
  • As a young person who grew up on the internet, with no parental oversight, I can say it’s because there is a lot of right wing bullshit online that media companies love to push on their users. When I was a tween I got suckered into it hard when one day youtube decided to put mgtow videos in my recommended feed. I never initially searched for them. I did eventually get out of it, and I’m not entirely sure how, but I remember as a 13yo seeing trump in 2016 bully that disabled reporter and it really put a sour taste in my mouth. And then over the next few years that led to me leaving catholicism, becoming a socialist, and realizing I’m transgender and very gay.

    With me being transgender and pan, that adds another aspect to it, because I think I knew subconsciously that I was queer as a tween, but growing up in an environment where I was repeatedly told those things were wrong led to me feeling absolutely miserable about myself, and misery loves company. And this also makes me wonder how many nazis are queer and don’t even realize it or refuse to recognize it.


  • I’m trans in the US. After insurance I pay about $300 to $400 every 3 months for blood tests and a follow up. My meds cost me an additional $90 for 3 months as well. They are my hormones and another medication unrelated to me being trans. I get my meds at a local independent pharmacy, so they are relatively cheap. I used to get them at a large chain pharmacy and they were about twice as much there.

    I also used to work as a cashier at a pharmacy. I once had to ring someone up who was paying over $3,000 for some cancer medication. It also wasn’t uncommon to see people paying around $500 for medications that they need to be alive.





  • Yeah I’ve heard a lot of people are having trouble with it rn so I don’t feel too bad about myself. I’ve been making a bunch of projects to put on my portfolio so hopefully that will help.

    I’m thinking the reason why is that a lot of tech companies have been laying off a bunch of people recently. This means it’s going to be difficult to find an internship until those companies start experiencing loses from having skeleton crews, and then they’ll start hiring a bunch of people back on (which they will layoff again eventually). The tech industry just tends to be annoying like that.


  • I know I’m a bit late to this post but I’ve been doing really well transition wise. Last month I got to 1 year on HRT so that was very hype. Also started prog about 2 months back and its sedative effects have been very useful, as I usually have a hard time falling asleep.

    Personally though, I’ve been very stressed out with college and I haven’t had any luck finding a comp sci internship, but I’m still hopeful I will get something eventually. 😅

    Also the feeling of finally loving yourself and caring about the body you’re in is amazing. HRT is a wonder drug









  • You do deserve to be able to come out and feel safe regardless of if you are on HRT or if you are “passing” or not.

    I’m 21 now, but I used be a highly anxious 17 year old with parents that had a hard time fully accepting me, so I can relate quite a bit. My anxiety and depression weighed on my very heavily, and eventually I decided that I would just bite the bullet and wear a dress in public at a busy park. At this point in time I wasn’t on HRT, I didn’t feel like I “passed”, and I was extremely worried about people seeing me as some weirdo and making a big deal about it. To my surprise no one seemed care at all. I felt more comfortable coming out to people after this experience and many were supportive/okay with me being trans even though I felt like I looked too masculine and strange.

    Anyways, your anxiety around coming out and passing reminded me of myself and my experiences, and I am hoping that I was able to show that it doesn’t really matter if you pass or not. People understand that you are at the beginning of your transition and that it takes time. If they truly do value you, they will be supportive or will come around to it eventually. The first part of transitioning is the most difficult imo, but I swear it does get better and easier.