I assume you don’t believe in Buddhism, but if you do it makes sense. The Dalai Lama is the reincarnation of an enlightened being. Its like if jesus would have come back all the time instead of just once for a few days. (It’s not exactly like that and I’m not Buddhist)

Yea thats tough. I found myself in the same situation 1-2 years ago. I just moved to a different city when I finished highschool. This might not be feasible for your you unfortunately. Even my closest friends in my hometown whom I’ve known for almost 10 years now don’t know. But I found support in local queer community in my new city. It might feel weird at first but it really helps. If you can find a group then reach out.

For me all the “female” stuff is just FINTA stuff instead. Easy fix and conservatives don’t really know what FINTA means so they don’t care and I can celebrate alternative gender identities in peace.