hello again everyone, back in rehab. first time in this one, probably 20 total detoxes but first proper rehab it’s really flash but crikey they were stingy with the benzos at first, nightmareishly difficult first day it took me 14hrs to blow zeros.

about 10mins til I’ve completed one day.

damn it feels good to be back, missed these groups. going to as many AA and NA meetings as possible. also dealing w trauma

wish you all the best, will not drink today

also I made a meme

i can just walk out the front door lmao but strange town and no car.

got a buddy of 15 years who lives close by who I only met once on his 18th, he saw how gnarly I got and he decided to quit drugs alcohol and cigarettes been clean ever since. so I am helping people somehow.

18 days today, havent been looking at my phone which is good. going to meetings, things are going well, hope y’all are too

still kicking, 8 days. lots of coffee

day 3 let’s gooo

i blew it gang sorry, day 19 have to reset. im not in control of my money and I saw an opportunity to sell something valuable to me for beer money. devasted. but it’s not the end of the world. see you tomorrow for day 1

playing wotlk on a private server, only for a week cause im borrowing my mates computer but yep she’s addictive, lvl 32 already

day 17 but I relapsed on world of warcraft, stayed awake for 36hrs playing drinking coffee, slept through the NA meeting lol

bit late buddy haha happy friday. im about 2hrs away from 2 weeks which is great cause fridays are a bit of a trigger but I get to think oh hey another week down

keep forgetting to check in but im still going, day 10

officially 1 week since i blew zeros at the hospital. see you all tomorrow👍

today was tough but i made it through. got a meeting in 30mins, day 6. been one week since I absolutely sent it and I swear im still hungover.

day 5, meeting tonight, silently hyped. iwndwyt

IM BACK. for good this time.

-trigger warning-too many to count last friday i drank 30 beers and 3/4 bottle of scotch, was generally belligerent and self injuring so the ambulance was called, I got restrained and woke up in a padded room still smashed punching the glass and screaming, crashed again and woke up in mhicu, mental health intensive care unit, sober now and realising where I was, I was on best behaviour.

place sucks. no telly, no books no radio, fights every few hours, super heavy furniture, big frownie face on the wall written in blood. I literally sat and watched the clock for over 9hrs during the 3.5 days.

ive got an AA meeting in 3hrs. IWNDWYT

morning all, day 16 have a good one

13 days. big anxiety and depression, too many coffee and cigarettes. supposed to be at work where I’ll be surrounded by a couple hundred thousand litres of wine in tanks and barrels, plus i manage the warehouse where there’s about 250,000 bottles of finished product. have to pass a breathalyzer at start and end of shift.

sounds like a dangerous place for an alcoholic to work but i can’t stand the stuff. wouldn’t last long in a brewery.

day 12 iwndwyt.

day ten first proper cravings and horrible gut feeling like impending doom but made it through the day.

woops v late. I need to set an alarm. day 10! first proper cravings today but pushed through and drove past 2 bottleshops. v proud of me. iwndwyt

i got my cat back from my parents too! it’s been a non stop cuddle puddle :D

happy wednesday homies. still day 8, outta hospy, first day back at work, just got home, plum tuckered out. iwndwyt and see you all tomorrow :)