Please get help in having a more positive lookout to life. Be it therapy, a new and (hopefully) fulfilling hobby, philosophy, anything. And, on the other side of the same problem: try getting rid of habits that make you unhappy. Otherwise you are going to spiral downward.
Well I didn’t think anyone would take this seriously, but I thought along the lines of severed body parts and a head instead of that piece of melon. but only do it if you have fun at it.