I’d like to preface this with an open encouragement for people who find my behaviour uncomfortable to simply block me. I will most likely block people who post "vol"cel police from now on, because it triggers my queer trauma.

I’m motivated to write this after I went around my apartment hiding my fairy lights, my fuzzy bathroom rug, my flower scented deodorant and other stuff which might out me as gay to the workers who will come today to install my Internet and lamps. I do not want to risk getting attacked or having someone sabotage my home due to homophobia.

The society hates queer sexualities. They want us neutered or at the very least scared into silence. There is no "vol"cel police when it’s not voluntary. And memeing queer people into silence about our sexualities if frankly homophobic and I have to get it off my chest, because it’s eating me up and perhaps other people too who may lack the ability to articulate it or are scared to speak up in fear of repreccussions.

I am queer. My sexuality is queer. I am an ally to ace people and if they find my queer behaviour uncomfortable, I’m happy for them to block me. But I also identified as ace incorrectly for myself, because I was so systematically stigmatized for it my depression and fear were neutering me. I will not be silenced. I went to liberal “queer” spaces where I had my very tame messages banned, I literally had “tfw no top bf” banned in a space which wasn’t designated for minors, because “top refers to a sexual position”. My queer sexuality is a sexuality. I find cocks and balls hot. I am not sorry for that, even though my first instinct was to write “sorry” after that statement. I’ve been apologizing for my existence my entire life, still do, but I know I shouldn’t and I feel really bad having to explain this in a supposedly queer friendly space. Again, if my open queerness makes you uncomfortable, use the block button. You can literally use one click not to see me. It’s as easy as this. But don’t you dare to silence my queerness. Yes, it’s sexual. No, again, I will not apologize for it. Hell, literally all of the posts I’ve made which received the volcel police response were made with 0 horny. I go years without feeling any kind of horny from exhaustion, depression and fear. I got scared out of my home by homophobes, got kicked out by homophobes, very likely got denied housing by homophobes who merely will not tell me the reason. I am visibly queer. People can tell hearing me speak, seeing me move, seeing how I look like, including my anatomy. I’m not here to discuss the prejudice people face based on looks. It’s just how it is. The prejudice I experience isn’t based off of gender roles. It’s based off of homophobia. Homophobes can tell us and will act upon them identifying us. Sometimes their identification is misplaced, but they act upon it all the same. They don’t care if you’re a masc gay. They hate you for being gay. Gayness or queerness is the true reason behind the hatred. And I will not hide mine nor be gaslight into hiding it by homophobia disguised as a meme.

Sorry if you make a response and I cannot respond. The mobile data is very low, but I’m supposed to get the normal Internet today.

I wish all unapologetic queer people a very good day and homophobes hiding behind memes a very mediocre day. If you try to gaslight me, I will probably just block you, because I’m tired of homophobes thinking they’re hiding when they’re in plain sight.