I am no longer able to tell if people are being friendly or not. I am not sure what it is or why.
When I presented male I for the most part just expected a general level of friendliness and I was mostly calm in interactions with strangers. I didn’t really have a constant fear or paranoia associated with interaction.
Now presenting as a trans woman I feel im like hypervigilant and fundamentally can not parse if people are being friendly or hostile towards me. People are like a shifting cypher of mystery where I am constantly over analyzing what people are saying or doing. NGL it might be a trauma response not sure.
I am no longer able to tell if people are being friendly or not. I am not sure what it is or why.
When I presented male I for the most part just expected a general level of friendliness and I was mostly calm in interactions with strangers. I didn’t really have a constant fear or paranoia associated with interaction.
Now presenting as a trans woman I feel im like hypervigilant and fundamentally can not parse if people are being friendly or hostile towards me. People are like a shifting cypher of mystery where I am constantly over analyzing what people are saying or doing. NGL it might be a trauma response not sure.