I wish I could speak Finnish. But, actually, there are tons of languages I wish I could speak. All of them, really, but Finnish is the first one I thought of just now.
I’m in the US and English is my my primary language. I studied Russian but have forgotten a lot of it. I know a few words of German and French, but very few.
Edited to add: Please tell me what your primary language is. It would also be interesting to know what other languages you speak, if any, and where you currently live.
I also had this problem. Eventually I realized there isn’t a time limit and if it takes me 10 years to become fluent, I’ll still be fluent at the end.
Using that logic, I stopped trying to cram lessons like I’m studying for finals again and just do like 10 minutes a day. And if I miss a day or two then thats fine.