Does anyone else have or had a problem creating and maintaining a female self image in your mind? I can barely do it if at all, and it can be a little distressing. I can only see myself as the overly masculine body that I currently have.
I’m not on HRT nor presenting as a woman in public. Maybe if I was my self image would change?
It takes time. You’re undoing a lifetime of transphobia on the path to self acceptance. Even when you know who you are, the entrenched stuff takes time to undo. You’ll get there though.
That being said, I’ve got aphantasia, so no mental images of myself, past, present or future. It took me time to accept myself and feel comfortable with my labels, without a future self image to work towards. But, I got there.