I’m a 21 year old guy and struggle with depression for my whole life because of traumatic things I experienced from my parents.
About 2 years ago I completely lost all my spirit and willingness in life. I fell into this dark hole where I’m not able to do anything on my own anymore and had to move back to my parents since I wasn’t able to live on my own anymore.
Since then I spent the full 2 years completely alone in my room every single day and haven’t been outside or met anyone since. I only get outside maybe once a month to buy groceries but except from that I don’t see the world anymore, have no activities to do and live with pure hopelessness, no money and very little food.
Even though my family knows all that and I’m crying out for help, no one is helping me. I’ve lived in many facilities before, went to therapy and have a psychiatrist but all they do is talk but that’s it. I tried my very best but realized that I’m just not capable to live on my own.
And then all my parents do (especially my father) is treating me the same way like when I was a kid that caused my depression in the first place by letting out their dissatisfaction/frustration with themselves on me and baselessly blaming/criticizing me for every little thing. And all that is just making it so much worse and harder for me to get out of the situation.
They let me suffer in hell until I go insane or die.
I don’t understand why this world is so cruel. It feels like no one cares about people who suffer.
I don’t get that. If I was better off and knew someone in such a situation I would do everything to help them and give them what they need. Why is no one helping and just let you suffer like that?
Hey OP, I saw in a comment that you’ve tried medications and nothing has helped. I was in the same boat and struggled for a long time. It took switching doctors, but I found one that did genetic testing for me and was able to find a medication that worked really well. Later, I suffered through some severe trauma and it really knocked me back down again. I spoke to my doctor about it and we determined that TMS treatment was a good option for me, and I’m happy to report that it worked really really well and I’m doing a lot better.
There are options out there like these, but I think they are little known, and it took many years before any doctors offered them. I know it is so hard to do so, but I think it’s important to be able to speak up and say “hey doc, I’ve tried different meds for years and nothing helps, what other things can we do?”